The Force.

I've underestimated motherhood. It took my youngest child to make me realise how important it is that I should be with her. Be with Both. My two angels. Leaving them with my mum was a mistake.

No.

Getting back into the workforce was a mistake. I'm missing out on their growing-up. I'm missing out on their Firsts. The words of my ex boss still rings in my head, "the first seven years of childhood is the most important" and he made his wife stop work to take care of them. Only when they started scool, did she start work again. I now understand why.

Hubs was right too. I should've listened as he was much happier having the kids with me at all times. Yeah, I miss that moment too. So what's there to lose? I only have two kids, age is catching up and they won't be toddlers for long and I want to enjoy these years. Well, a decision has to be made...work can wait. At least I do know now that I still have what it takes to get a job. Then again, 3 years down....that's another story...for now, do what's best.