That's just how it is....

That's it. After many attempts to get a job, getting in a job and then back out again. I've given in to the fact that this is just meant to be. To be a homey. To be a 'domestic engineer' (naaaaak juga ada unsur2 kerja la kan :))

...and I think it's the best decision I've ever made. Well, when you have kids, it makes you really re-think your priorities and goals. You want the best but you can't have it all kan?

So much effort was put into adapting to work-life a few months back....and when I left...another round of effort was needed to get back into mama-mode...the household was a bit 'porak-peranda' for a while and I think I did the right thing to sort it out. It'd be a lie if I said everything was ok. Nothing is perfect in married life (with kids). You just have to know your place, your role and your priorities.

Now, I am much more content. Learned to live within our means. Pushed aside the unnecessary and live everyday, thankful that you have a roof over your head, a husband who's always asking for his fave dish repeatedly and 2 kids that complete the whole picture. Now, i'm purely focused on raising the kids, spending time with them and involving them in whatever we do.

My parents wished I had re-started work, I understand, because it would help them abit since I've been chipping in here and there for them but I hope they understand my position now as it will have to take the back seat. Nothing beats having the kids under your care.They're young and you still have time, insya'allah :)

I do get the occasional work-envy, tak tipu but everyones fate is different. Rezeki masing-masing. No question about that. My rezeki is here, at home. Make the most of it.